2/19/10

At times I find myself wondering what if...? I have really done my share of troublemaking I no longer live with society. I'm no longer considered a part of it. I'm an outsider and I brought it upon myself. I worry to much. I'm disappointed far more than I expect. And I chose to keep those false expectations. I just wish there really was a time machine, but then everyone will right their wrongs and nobody would meet anyone. I overthink to damn much. There are too many things I wish I could have a second opinion on. I'm so damn lonely. And its all because I chose to be. I never go out and experience the world the way I would want to. I'm so freaking selfish. I don't want to attach this to her. I want it to be different for her. I want her to enjoy herself while she's still young. And I hope she does.

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