History;

I share this history with this guy. And I like him a lot. Except I don't like him at all. I wish I had more direction in life. I have no idea what I want. I want him to want me. Like I already want him but there's no use. Time has passed and I already want out. I wish life wasnt complicated. I wish love wasn't complicated. I wish decisions wouldnt be hard to make. Why didnt I just say yes? Why didn't I answer him correctly? I want the past to disappear. I wanna go back and erase that conversation. Why cant I be normal?