My lack of friendships...

I really wish I had a best friend. I love hearing stories about those who have them. I had two best friends before. But as I soon found out, friends always let you down. I don't expect much from people. At times I might but most of the time I expect very little. I was actually raised thinking that friends will let you down no matter what. I always thought that in my head. I don't really know why but as I would have that in my head I would think the opposite. I would think "No, this person is sincere. They're different, they'll never let me down". And I was wrong. I know that I have so much ahead of me and that soon I'll find someone who will really appreciate my company, but I want some sincere people now. I don't want to be alone. I want to believe that people are good, and that friendships are possible. Possible and last a lifetime. That's all I ask for. That's all I want.